"My last moments of life

Spent laying next to my friend

I could build you a pretty picture about my death

I could have you think I went peacefully

But those last moments ended with bouts of confusion 

No longer could I comprehend what was below or above me

I felt as if life's basics had been thrown in a black velvet bag 

As they are picked out one by one

They no longer have the same meaning they did before

Everything is chaos, yet an eerie calm sits on all of our shoulders. 

As if we know what is coming

I can feel the rope tightening around my neck like a snake strangling its prey

I bend down and dip my fingers into the river of pacifaction

And I wash my face

Again and again

Over and over

I'm clean now." 

© 2010 Arianah Aiena

Same Subject As Before

"I watch the scene unfold before me below

My gaze will not leave these people

Even though I want to leave them alone

I feel the floor beneath me growl 

Oh what now? What now?

I look back towards the people whose agony has not changed

I try to set my gaze on just one poor soul, but there are too many

And then I disappear with the building, the fire

I dip down below to the City of Liars." 

© 2010 Arianah Aiena

The Deaf

"Out in the open, I am left

Here the sun doesn't shine or set

So I can't see the pain, but oh how I can feel it

It's inside me, throbbing in the middle of my bones

And the screams and cries around me bounce off

And the throbbing, the throbbing will just not let off

It's so loud the deaf could hear this pain

I want to move away from it, but I'm but a stain 

Woven into the quilt of hell

A little soil the gods of war want to correct

A mere smudge the heroes of war will soon forget

In my mind I console a woman crying for her lost child

She answers me with a small twisted-like smile

In my allusions of heroism, 

I imagine myself eating up everyone's tears

This brings me temporary peace, helps calm my ears

As though someone bends the knife that's already in me

A howl rises above with the spiraling smokes

Dissapearing with the rest of the frog's croaks

I let one gasp of air fill my lungs

And feel my eyes rolling back into my skull

War did this to me, I admit

But humanity was behind it." 

© 2010 Arianah Aiena

Love Affair with Poseidon

"Throw me into Poseidon's arms

Have him carry me to another place

Let me jostle beside him

To seek a new human race

I'll implore him one day

To migrate my mind to another body 

A body that has no body 

A soul that remains wet and soggy

His lover, his partner to be

I will become Amphitrite

And no longer will I fear the sea

Because the very thing I fear will be me." 

© 2011 Arianah Aiena

The balloons

"The balloons are deflating, like I do

They wrinkle inside themselves

Coiling towards someplace where the deflated go

The most gentle breeze knocks them around 

The very thing keeping them alive 

Is against them 

Leaving them, slowly

Ever so slowly." 

© 2011 Arianah Aiena

Another nother

"Don't let the clouds mask your sun

Eventually they'll move on

And you'll look at the sun

And you'll see a spot 

And the spot will stare back at you

Even when you're not

So let the ground soak up the rain

And let your tires deal with the terrain 

Because we've only got each other

And without you, I'm just another nother." 

© 2011 Arianah Aiena

And I'm content.

"Rubbing my eyelashes against my hand.

Trying to get you to just understand.

Your eyelids seem to sigh.

Oh why, oh why, oh why

My hand takes the weight of my head.

Would it be better if we were all just dead?

Air goes in your mouth, but doesn't come out.

You look pale and weak. What's this all about?

IT WAS JUST A THOUGHT THAT CAME TO ME BRIEFLY

PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME, DON'T LEAVE ME!

I begin running my hands through my hair.

Then suddenly you're here. You're here! Not there.

And I'm content."

© 2011 Arianah Aiena